This is my first entry, so let's see how it goes.
I'm going to vent:
I hate being creative. No, rather, I hate trying to be creative and NOT being. I have hit and miss moments with my artwork. I love to draw, I've done it as long as I can remember. Nowadays at school, since I've mature a bit, I'm trying to get my drawing to mature too. I try paying closer attention to details in hair, shading, highlights, all the elements that make fantastic artwork like I've seen on Deviantart. But it seems I lack a certain je ne sais pas about artwork. Trying to create things from scratch--from my head--always fails. I also lack the patience when it comes to really focusing my time and energy onto creating something meaningful. The time's thing a real issue these days with all my school and filmmaking and what-not going on.

I just realized that no ones gonna fucking see this and it makes me look like a bleeding heart pompous prick. Like really, who really cares what I think? But that's why I'm trying this journal thing out, maybe this community actually has some input and words of wisdoms, a resource that can help me further my desire and passion to draw. I don't want to lose it, but I'm afraid my life is taking me in new directions.